So much to lose here in this lonely place

[cyrano]

I do not know if my mood is caused or just complemented by my music, but I've been listening to Sarah McLachlan in the car ever since I hunted down a copy of the new album. Tired. Hate work. Sharply aware of how little I'm actually accomplishing with my life. And thinking 'fuck it, I'm almost surviving, what more do you want from me?'

But I got to attend most of movie night here, and then went to the Palo Alto Munch.
Jim, I said hi to Yani. And I got introduced around, and I got multiple hugs from Lenora. She gave me a quick run down on who she likes and who she doesn't. And I got a flyer for classes this weekend which I will likely pass on.

And now, despite it being late and me having eaten three whole meals today, I'm starving.

Comments

[miss-friday.livejournal.com]

In a lot of ways degrees are overrated. I'm a prime example of how "having a degree" has not made getting a job any easier. In fact it made it harder when I was looking for "real" jobs. Witness my current situation.

A lot of learning you'd do in the course of getting the sheepskin would be BS that does not interest you, but administration has declared are Things You Should Know. Probably why you gave up in the first place; hasn't changed any.

There are lots of ways to learn things, even scholarly things, without ever setting a foot in a classroom. They don't give you an embossed piece of paper at the end though. And they don't cost tens of thousands of dollars either.

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

Maybe what I'm really looking for is a way to convince myself that the potential I'm supposed to have isn't being let to rot.

[juliansinger.livejournal.com]

Man, do I feel this.

To the bottom of my 30-year-old-feel-like-a-waste-of-space soul.

I also have no answer.