She's a summer storm

[cyrano]

Horoscope for: Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Cyrano,
Someone very close to you may remind you today of what you don't like about yourself. It's difficult enough knowing an aspect of your own life that has fallen short of your expectations, but having another person give words to it can push you close to the edge of emotional discomfort. Don't resist this little journey into your insecurity, for you can gain strength and awareness by confronting your self-imposed limitations.

Oh good. Because I certainly don't remind myself *all on my own* about my many shortcomings *every single day* and cause myself 'emotional discomfort'. I think I'll just take a little journey into my insecurity. Yeah. Yeah, that sounds great. I can't wait for the strength and awareness.
[/lewisblack]

And also, folks who have good energy to spare for my friend Windrose in Florida (and, of course, everywhere else in the path of the hurricane starting with the Caribbean islands it's already plowed over), it appears to be setting a lot of records. I'm guessing it's peeved because it's only tied the record for 'most hurricanes in a single season' and is compensating.

PUNTA GORDA, Fla. - Gathering strength at a record pace, Hurricane Wilma grew into the most intense Atlantic storm ever recorded Wednesday — a Category 5 monster with 175 mph winds that is expected to make landfall somewhere on Florida’s west coast by late Saturday and then possibly make course for New England.

The National Hurricane Center — which bases a storm’s strength on barometric pressure, not wind speed — said Wilma’s pressure had dropped to 882 millibars, the lowest minimum pressure ever measured in a hurricane in the Atlantic basin. Pressure drops as a hurricane gains strength, and the previous record was set by Hurricane Gilbert in 1988 at 888 millibars.

Center meteorologist Hugh Cobb said Wilma also set a record for the most rapid strengthening ever recorded in a hurricane.

Comments

[tersa.livejournal.com]

And also, folks who have good energy to spare...

I am beginning to run out of good energy this year. :/

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling. But... at least the year's nearly over.

[mnarra.livejournal.com]

It's odd, but I feel the stars moving me, casting words through me.

You know...I've been meaning to tell you....

You're not as tall as you could be. And Caucasian really doesn't suit you; it implies prejudices that don't do you credit.

:waits for strength & awareness to manifest:

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

And Caucasian really doesn't suit you;

I'm Romany dammit!
--one of my old SCA friends from Oregon

[mnarra.livejournal.com]

Hmmm...is this insecurity, causing you to raise your voice? Explore that....

[sararainmaker.livejournal.com]

while it is generally good to look inside oneself to discover the weaknesses we have, constantly staring inside your own soul with a high-powered microscope will never lead to good, and likely lead to much worse than being ignorant of it.

Take a break from being so critical of yourself and what you consider your failures and concentrate on doing those things for which you excel at for a while.

Remind yourself of the good things within you, because no human soul will ever look beautiful under a high power microscope, the souls look most beautiful when viewed in totality.

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

Which is certainly good advice. And I wish I could pay more attention to it. My big problem here is that the things I excel at are often the things that I am most self-critical about because I could be better and the only thing that holds me back from realizing my true potential is my own laziness and failure to commit. You can see it's all downhill from there. (:
But yeah, a lack of self-examination is not my big problem. It's the crippling standards that I seem to require myself to live up to for no better reason than it demands that I fail.

[sararainmaker.livejournal.com]

Higher standards for yourself than of others is part of being highly critical of ones own self. being highly critical of ones self stems from too much attention on the small rather than the large.

seeing this as a problem is good... but what will you do about it now that you have recognized it as such?

What do you want? once you know what you want work backwards from there. fill in the big of what needs to be done to get that, then fill in the gaps with the smaller steps. write all those tasks down and make your goals.

say... I dunno, say I wanted to become a Doctor [which I don't]

To become a doctor I would have to go to med school, graduate from med school, and get a job.
*to go to med school I would have to get money, pass tests and get accepted.
**To get money I would have to get a loan and get a part-time job.
**To pass tests I would have to study and read a lot.
**To get accepted I must apply for the schools.
[etcetera]

The completion of each smaller goal is an accomplishment in itself and should be rewarded. the constant rewards from completing the smaller goals will lead to the quicker completion of the larger one and the eventual dream coming true.

Positive re-enforcement is always better than punishment.