cyrano: (Smoking Wile)
Cyrano Jones ([personal profile] cyrano) wrote2008-12-11 07:32 am

I'm still here... somewhere.

It was noted yesterday that I've been rather quiet lately, or at least not as loquacious as usual. I'm still upright, despite a trip to Urgent Care this week for what was not a stroke at all. Work is still kind of like a Godzilla movie (I am not Mothra in this case, despite having two tiny princesses who sing to me) but I'm hoping to be back soon to tell you all about school plans. My horoscope this morning is "It's possible that everything will turn out okay" and with that burst of optimism, I'm ready to go.

As an aside to Mike Huckabee.... when somebody mentions that religion is far more of a LifeStyle Choice than being gay, you win yourself no points here when you show how restricted Peoples of Religion are by saying "Religious people don't get to burn people at the stake."
(Firstly, because you must amend that statement with "any longer".)

[identity profile] my-aerie.livejournal.com 2008-12-11 04:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Woah, wait, not a stroke? That's good. But what was it? What happened? Are you okay? You can't say things like that and not elaborate, it makes the Alaskan redheads worry!

[identity profile] cyranocyrano.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
I started going blind on Tuesday morning. Just on one side. And it didn't go away. So after calling the wrong Urgent Care, my doctor's substitute, and the Eye Department, I said "screw it" and corralled a friend to drive me to the right Urgent Care. And by that time I was starting to get stabbing pains and light sensitivity and all the things that herald a migraine and I said "Oh I bet that's what it is".
And they put me into a dark room for a while and then tested my brain to make sure it still worked, and said "Yeah, that's what it is. Do you want a shot?"

[identity profile] reluctantgenius.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 03:44 am (UTC)(link)
So did you get the shot? Did it hurt?

[identity profile] cyranocyrano.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
I refused the shot, because
I have issues about taking drugs
I have recently had far too many drugs in my life already
I was pretty sure the pain wasn't that bad

[identity profile] my-aerie.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 05:49 am (UTC)(link)
Awww, hun. *hugs* Not fun. :/ I'm glad you're alright, but I'm sure that was pretty scary.

[identity profile] cyranocyrano.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 06:09 am (UTC)(link)
In fact, the anxiety probably produced a lot of the side effects and enhanced the others. I was trying to recognize that but it didn't seem to help me feel less scared. (:

[identity profile] my-aerie.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
yeh, I have pretty bad anxiety and panic attacks, and even when I know what's going on, it's hard to keep my mind from going "ZOMG YOU'RE DYING DON'T YOU FEEL YOUR HEART POUNDING OUT OF YOUR CHEST AND YOU CAN'T BREATHE AND YOU'RE GONNA DIE!!!"

...yeah. :P

[identity profile] aberdeen.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 03:23 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah! All of us are prone to worry. Take care of yourself and don't fall too far out of touch.

[identity profile] cyranocyrano.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 04:59 am (UTC)(link)
I am not setting out to hermit myself away from everyone. It just... starts to happen, as I pull back and say "This is the pile of stuff I have the energy to deal with. This pile is not."
I am far too fond of you to hermit away from you.

[identity profile] kavi-garou.livejournal.com 2008-12-11 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Miss you!

[identity profile] cyranocyrano.livejournal.com 2008-12-12 01:40 am (UTC)(link)
**HUG**