Turned on some music to start my day

Woke up this morning, panicked, because the stereo was already playing, quietly, and I figured I was already late. But no, according to my computer I was up five minutes early. (The other side of the mix tape I commented on in Friday's entry; includes some cool stuff I'd never heard before. Lucious Jackson, Soul Coughing...)
And in the bathroom I discovered that I have that eczema crap breaking out on my eyelid again. Usually that's a stress reaction, but the odd thing is that the past couple of days I've been feeling less stressed than usual. A couple of days off, a bunch of movies (at home and in cinema), and wonderful lovely Megs and wonderful lovely Cindy said 'go to the post office--they desperately want to hire people; it pays better than the current job, and might turn into an actual career type thing'. Plus it wouldn't have the transportation issues that the SkyWest job would have.
Last night there were no parties at all. I just stayed home and watched Titus and was incredibly depressed because these people were doing something creative and innovative and I doubt I will ever do something like that because I'm not sure I've got it anywhere inside me.
But today I'm feeling much better.

Growing up in fear and panic; Bang! Nine automatic.

So today was not the best day. Stayed busy at work, things were going by pretty quickly. This is a good thing. Around four, I was in the middle of a rental and realized I couldn't make the words on the paper focus. I smoothly and professionally passed the rental on to Karsten (Or, as known by his Rapper Name, Special K) and went back to put the rental in a garment bag and say 'what the hell?'
Within half an hour, my vision was clouded--everything was covered with a milky gauze. This was when I got completely terrified. It didn't get any worse, at least. Just about the time I got that familiar stabbing pain behind my right eye, my vision started to clear. I was still full of adrenaline and more or less a basket case, but at least I could say 'this is why it happened, and it's only temporary'.
I've never had a migraine do that to me before, but I've heard people describe it as a symptom. By the time I got home from work, I only had the usual symptoms to deal with--dizziness, asymetrical head pain and nausea. I managed to get dinner cooked before Ellie showed up, though. And it was good not to be in the house alone, and I was considerably less freaked out. Thanks, nice Ellie!