Overwhelmed

I want to try to make words out of what I'm feeling. But I can't even make feels out of what I'm feeling. There's too much, and it's too big, and it's all bad, and it all conflicts so I can't sort it out and turn it into something that makes sense, let alone make words. And I certainly can't do it when I'm already half way down the rabbit hole. So I have to just go on the assumption that trying to make words is enough, because that's all I have. And so when you ask what you can do to help, and I can't tell you anything, this is why.