An Infinite Number of Monkeys

I think I would have gotten more out of this film if I spoke Korean. It's an epic hero's path, and there's got to be a lot of allegory and metaphor in this because otherwise strictly from a physics point of view great swaths of this don't happen. Three wags.

Spent some time making sure my 7th Sea 2ed downloads are up to date, including reminding myself how unsatisfying reading gaming books in ebook form are. I miss Captain TrueHeart, Fafhrd and the Grey Mouser, and Padre Calavero. Not enough swashbuckling around here.

1. Still more than half tempted to start over with an archer. I can't move while shooting, and I find this irksome. However, I just discovered an ability that reduces cooldown on stuff for every regular shot I take, which makes me feel way better about the pitiful amount of damage my regular attack does. Although I think it only counts for the one school of magic.

2. In DA or ME if you give your NPCs abilities that don't fit in the quicktool bar, will they still use those abilities?

Upon twenty minutes of meditation on the foggy grounds through the warm kitchen's window:

It's ... kinda swirly out there.

I know it's a beautiful, award winning episode.
But it still pisses me off.

I now have a new favorite Doctor Strange movie.
I'm surprised I didn't hear more outrage about the casting. Of the... five or six named/powerful sorcerers, only one of them was Asian (in a tradition that seemed pretty steeped in Asian mysticism). At least one of the secret magical bases protecting the planet was in Asia, but all three were in the Northern Hemisphere. It almost feels like somebody set out to tweak noses with this.
I enjoyed this film, the special effects give it four wags out of five, although I am concerned that the power levels displayed in this film will make it difficult to team Strange up with anybody else in the MCU.

This was another chewy satisfying ethics/morals episode about what it means to be human.
Do they touch back on this episode when they encounter the Borg again?

This episode tackles one of the things I found fascinating about Shoujo Kakumei Utena--the character who lives to reflect the desires of others, and how easy it is to accept that this reflection is representative of the core because you badly want it to. And thus indicating that it ended exactly how Picard would want it to end--a strong intelligent woman sacrificing for him, chosing duty first, and leaving him with wistful pleasant memories and the knowledge that he had won her but not having to choose between her and his ship.

Also, every time I see the Enterprise zoom across the screen and see the stars shifting behind it, I have to say "That is not how stars work".

(Early aside: Despite the fact that maybe three people will see my icon here on Dreamwidth, I spend an awful lot of time choosing it.)

Lately things have been more okay. I'm at peace with myself in a way I never have before. I don't have a job, and while that's definitely not ideal, I'm not tearing myself apart about it. I don't feel like I'm a failure as a person. I'm accomplishing things that may at least bring in some income, if not enough to be an actual job. Emotionally, I think I'm maturing. I'm not sure if counseling is helping or not, but I'm still going, I'm still open to the process. I still have depressions, and that's not surprising. I have come to terms with the idea that I'll probably always have them, and I'm working to positively work with them. AmberCon is two-plus weeks away, and I haven't had any of my usual panic over not being ready, and how my games are doomed to be giant pits of not fun and everybody will hate me. I feel on top of it, and my big problem there is being impatient that other people are not as excited as I am and aren't writing back soon enough for my tastes.

And my blood pressure keeps rising. My diet hasn't changed, so I don't think that's it. And I associate rising blood pressure with emotional stress. It's possible that I'm repressing all my emotional turbulence, but I really don't think that's the issue. And this concerns me, because one of the few things I've been able to count on as my body fails me in different ways over the years is that my blood pressure is 'on the higher end of normal'. It saddens me to lose that.

This morning, possibly in a dream, I figured out why the construction 'cishet' bothers me so much. I understand why we needed to create the term 'cisgendered' to address a description we didn't have a name for, but bundling up two unrelated terms into six letters is reductive and dismissive, and it's a classic case of Othering. People have made it clear that they're offended by the term, and even though we didn't mean the term as an insult, when somebody tells you that you've offended them, you don't get to tell them that you didn't. I've had the label slapped on me because I present as male, and my heterosexuality was inferred by default. Which is what the term promotes, really. And one of the tenets of the SJW community is that heteronormation is harmful to the human race.

So there we are. I think 'cishet' is sexually prejudiced, and even if it costs me a few extra letters to use both words, I can make up the lost ground by spelling 'for' as '4'.