I don't know where I'm goin'

[cyrano]

So my copy of 'Diesel and Dust' says that Happy Trails (the local used music store in Corvallis) put it on the shelf in the spring of '96. In fact, it would have been ten years ago in about two weeks. So this has set me off again, trying to remember how long I've been in this state. I think I'm coming up on my tenth anniversary this winter. That's a long time. I'm pretty sure that it was a good move, or at least better than staying. This doesn't stop me from wishing that, as I approach forty much more quickly than I'd like, I had some kind of career or some evidence that my life is building on a foundation rather than jumping from ice floe to ice floe in hopes of prolonging the time before I plunge over the frozen falls.

Comments

[mnarra.livejournal.com]

I had the same wish, and here is what I finally decided:

Until I have a dream I am seeking, everything I do is preparing myself for when I do find that dream. It may seem that I am floe-hopping, but truly I am creating the man that will be able to conceptualize and realize something truly astonishing. If I feel aimless, it is because I am not yet the man that can conceptualize what that truly astonishing thing is.

These days, I can conceptualize, I am working on realize...so there was at least coincidental validity to my viewpoint.

[jendaviswilson.livejournal.com]

Oh, I just found out that the shipping job has been filled. So as they tend not to call people back unless they got an interview, I'm letting you know. :(

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the update, hon.
And many happy returns of the day!

[hamgallon84.livejournal.com]

Where'd you live before Cali? I've been there a couple times. I liked it, but I don't do hot weather. I guess it's a good thing that I live where I do, then. I mean, today is March 24 and it's still snowing...

:)

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

I lived up the coast, in Corvallis Oregon. San Francisco is not too much with the hot, what with the ocean and all, but still more hotness than the Wilamette Valley.