Hope I die before I get old

[cyrano]

What the hell happened?
I used to sing. In choirs, in musicals, whatever.
I used to dance. Waltz, tango, cha cha, cumbia, swing of various flavors.
I used to act. School theater, community theater, Gods help me I even directed.
I built and painted sets. I wrote stories. I could read music and play very undemanding pieces on the piano.
Where the hell did I get that energy? Why is it so all-encompassing now to accomplish even the rude basics of life?
Is the rest of my life a process of cutting back and finding ways to do less and less? Because that would really suck.

Comments

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

Actually, yeah. Now that I think of it, it was a hell of a lot easier to do these things in Corvallis (and occasionally Albany, ten miles up the river). Of course, it also meant that my options and avenues were more limited--instead of 26 local amateur theater groups, I had maybe three. But the 'greater bay area' is spread out over... I don't know, maybe 200 square miles, adjusting for the big chunk of water in the middle (which certainly doesn't make getting around any easier). And if my social dance is at Starlight in Mountain View at nine, and my rehearsal for Urinetown is in Alameda at seven, and then I've got a choir performance in Walnut Creek that afternoon....

[diony.livejournal.com]

Yes, and there are all sorts of possibilities regarding traffic and the price of gas to worry about too.

Also for me a part of the point of doing these things (theoretically at least) is the being part of a community, in which one does these things and gets to know other people who do these things and ones friends come to see them etc. And there's a sense of -- closeness to it -- when the parking I'm performing at is the same park that's a bike ride from my house and is also across the street from the library and people might wander in to the amateur shakespeare in the park because the park is right across from the library. If that makes sense, which I'm not sure it does.

But anyway, I want both smaller space and smaller numbers of people, so that there is something solid about getting to know them, and more community to it all. (Or at least I am starting to think I want that.)