Tell me you love me--say I'm the only one

[cyrano]

I'm completely exhausted and full of useless short wave energy at the same time. I went through three laptops before I found one with an Internet inside it because I wanted to respond to emails and accomplish things. And none of it is getting done.

I'm tired of doing the safe thing, the reasonable thing. I don't want to ponder and weigh the pros and cons. I want to do something rash and stupid and impetuous that seems like a good idea at the time. And probably say to myself afterwards "Yes, that was amazingly stupid and now I'm completely screwed. Of course, I'm quite used to being completely screwed."

Also. I want some mother fucking ice cream. Now.