Ever since I re-watched House on Haunted Hill, I've had a far more ambivalent relationship with our living room in the darkness. It's a little disorienting--I haven't had this sort of reptile brain terror since living in Oregon. You know the kind--where you can't just walk down the stairs into the basement, you have to dash down them as quickly as possible. And maybe you even vault over those last four stairs with the storage area underneath because you can't convince yourself that the only thing being stored down there is old Christmas decorations.
So, sometimes if I get up in the night it's not a problem. Some times my throat closes up and I find myself suddenly lunging for a light switch. Because monsters hate the light, and are powerless within it. This is a problem if I went to get a drink of water and I've just slammed the glass into the wall.
So I just opened the bedroom door to go out and get a drink. And in the dim light from the skylight and from the back courtyard I could see a dark shape moving around my feet. At first I assumed that it was the cat, waiting for me to open the door so it could lie on my bed. But the cat was in the other bedroom with the door closed. And about the time that hit me, the shape swirled forward, across my bare feet (I did not jump back on my tiptoes and squeal like a school girl, although it crossed my mind that this might be the wisest course of action) and wraithed into my room.
And so I figured that tonight was one of those nights when I turned on the lights.
So, sometimes if I get up in the night it's not a problem. Some times my throat closes up and I find myself suddenly lunging for a light switch. Because monsters hate the light, and are powerless within it. This is a problem if I went to get a drink of water and I've just slammed the glass into the wall.
So I just opened the bedroom door to go out and get a drink. And in the dim light from the skylight and from the back courtyard I could see a dark shape moving around my feet. At first I assumed that it was the cat, waiting for me to open the door so it could lie on my bed. But the cat was in the other bedroom with the door closed. And about the time that hit me, the shape swirled forward, across my bare feet (I did not jump back on my tiptoes and squeal like a school girl, although it crossed my mind that this might be the wisest course of action) and wraithed into my room.
And so I figured that tonight was one of those nights when I turned on the lights.
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Date: 2009-09-24 10:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 12:37 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 04:59 pm (UTC)The power of suggestion is an overwhelming thing sometimes, but it does not reveal itself to a geiger counter.
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Date: 2009-09-24 05:19 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 12:50 pm (UTC)I used to do this sprint-leap-into-bed thing so I could avoid the monsters that were surely lurking underneath it once the lights went out.
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Date: 2009-09-24 02:34 pm (UTC)Personally I wish these moments had horror movie soundtracks, so when the spooky music started to build to a crescendo, I could just say, "Nope, spooky music. I'm not that thirsty after all..."
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Date: 2009-09-24 04:35 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 03:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 04:36 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 05:06 pm (UTC)Ditto, except to me it's because monsters are like rainbows from prisms, but in the dark...a prism needs light to do anything. A monster needs dark to exist.
I've been getting over my fear of the dark recently though...mostly by reminding myself that none of the awesome fantasies and imaginings I've had have come true, so why the hell do I expect reality from the scary things I dream up?
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Date: 2009-09-24 05:21 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 06:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-24 07:06 pm (UTC)I saw Kubrick's "The Shining" when I was eight. I didn't take a bath for a very long time, and it was even longer before I felt comfortable using the bathroom at all.
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Date: 2009-09-25 04:37 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-09-25 06:39 am (UTC)Hairballs.
Howling for no particular reason
Howling because they want to be fed.
Freaking out for no particular reason when you're holding them.
Kitty sleep rays.
Stiletto paws.
Climbing on top of the mantle/table and knocking stuff off.
Getting underfoot so as to knock you over.
Peeing on your down comforter.
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Date: 2009-09-25 03:33 am (UTC)no subject
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