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cyranoSo I took a quick day-trip to Portland yesterday (I'd have called if I had more time, Luana) and I am once again going through the thoughts that I think whenever I visit there or Seattle, the past three years.
Why haven't I moved there yet?
I keep refusing to admit that I'm not making enough money to survive here. For what I pay for my half of the rent now, I could probably get a three-bedroom apartment in Beaverton or Vancouver, and Jess finds it highly likely that she and I can track down a job that pays almost as much as if not more than what I'm making now.
I cannot craft words that express how much I really don't want to leave people I've spent five years getting to know and building a life with. The second big tie holding me here was concern about my housemate being left without somebody to help cover financially. (As much as I help cover.) And tonight she said she thought I should look into the idea. The third tie was removed about a year ago, and so mostly what I find barring the way is not things that keep me here but things that keep me from there.
If a position opens that I'm at least somewhat qualified for at SkyWest Portland I can ask for a transfer. There are apparently phone support positions with tech companies in Portland. Hell, I could probably work for Tower again if Sean is still working the Classical room in Mountain View and can give me a recommendation, but a job with medical insurance is pretty important to me. Given time, I could probably procure work before I got there.
Where do I come up with the money required to move me out of California and into a new place up north? How much of my collected crap can I/will I get rid of to save trying to ship it? Should I try to trade in the car here for one there? How can I move anywhere if even thinking about it drives me into a panic attack and I end up in the corner of the room crying?
Okay, so I can't talk about this any more for now. I'm sure there will be more news later.
Why haven't I moved there yet?
I keep refusing to admit that I'm not making enough money to survive here. For what I pay for my half of the rent now, I could probably get a three-bedroom apartment in Beaverton or Vancouver, and Jess finds it highly likely that she and I can track down a job that pays almost as much as if not more than what I'm making now.
I cannot craft words that express how much I really don't want to leave people I've spent five years getting to know and building a life with. The second big tie holding me here was concern about my housemate being left without somebody to help cover financially. (As much as I help cover.) And tonight she said she thought I should look into the idea. The third tie was removed about a year ago, and so mostly what I find barring the way is not things that keep me here but things that keep me from there.
If a position opens that I'm at least somewhat qualified for at SkyWest Portland I can ask for a transfer. There are apparently phone support positions with tech companies in Portland. Hell, I could probably work for Tower again if Sean is still working the Classical room in Mountain View and can give me a recommendation, but a job with medical insurance is pretty important to me. Given time, I could probably procure work before I got there.
Where do I come up with the money required to move me out of California and into a new place up north? How much of my collected crap can I/will I get rid of to save trying to ship it? Should I try to trade in the car here for one there? How can I move anywhere if even thinking about it drives me into a panic attack and I end up in the corner of the room crying?
Okay, so I can't talk about this any more for now. I'm sure there will be more news later.
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Date: 2003-03-03 12:17 pm (UTC)However, if you did move to Portland, you'd get the chance to see me and Chris at least once a year, if that's any incentive. ;-)
But let me add my encouragement to those I've already seen here. Do what is best for *you*, and let things work themselves out in their own time. And don't be afraid to ask for help. I may not have money lying around, but I do have time, if you ever need an afternoon of moral support or maybe just someone to cook you a meal and listen to steam blowing off, I'm around. Don't be shy about emailing me or calling.