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cyranoEggplant Boy provided me with this helpful link to Double Plus Ungood ThoughtCrime provoking books, including one that suggests that in a capitalist society, those who hold the capital might try to maximize profit. Do not allow these books to contaminate your precious bodily fluids at any cost, citizen!
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Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 04:09 pm (UTC)No, no. Rant, and see what comes with that.
[leans forward, lacing fingers together]
What do you feel when you rant? And why should you go away if your rant?
[looks wise] Zee muzzer. Vee often look to zee muzzer in zees cases.
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 04:57 pm (UTC)I suppose I just listen to people talk about "statistics" and I look back on my own very "statistical" life and wanna vomit. People look for excuses to be mean, rude or just plain nasty. I am not nasty, I am bluntly honest at times, but only when people need to hear what it is that I am saying. (in which cases its also most likely they don't want to hear what I am saying)
I have all the excuses in the world. I was raped at 12, pregnant at 16, brought abusive men into my life... I was shunned in school, my mother had a habit of being... slightly bi-polar...
of all these things, I could pick two and have a perfectly "Psychological" excuse for being a nasty crack-whore living in a trailer home with 6 kids and an abusive alcoholic husband. I could rob liqueur stores and purse snatch, I could even thieve from friends and abuse my kids, and I would "not be to blame"
Makes me sick. of COURSE I would be to blame. there is no one to blame but myself. what could I blame?
Rape? it happened 16 years ago and if I held on to that - it would be MY choice to do so (ergo, my fault).
Pregnancy? It was my (our) fault in the beginning, I did the right thing and good things came from it. Again holding on to it I would be my own victimizer. (my fault once again)
Abusive men? hmmm. my fault again. As I once heard a comedian say "In real life dangerous men are the ones you are leaning out of your trailer home yelling 'take his ass away officer!'" I was young and stupid and I learned my lesson and moved on. If i were still choosing them It would still be, you guessed it - My fault.
Shunned in school? This one drives me up the wall... those Columbine kids used this excuse to shoot up half the school and go nuts before offing themselves. Yeah okay I wasn't popular, it wasn't the end of the world then and it's DEFINITELY not the end of the world now. if it was... oooh MY FAULT! :D
bi-polar mother? eh, everyone have a crazy relative, mine just happens to be my mother. I learned to live with it and move on in life. If I hadn't... hey kiddies... MY FAULT...
my psychologist told me once, when I was in a seriously deep depression, that it wasn't my fault for being depressed. even back then I looked at him and asked, "If it's not my fault, who's is it? I control my feelings, no one else can do that. I control my actions, no one can do that either. Who is it, exactly then, that IS at fault for my own depression?" granted it turned out to be something that wasn't in my control, being brain chemistry and all that jazz, but still even in an off-side sort of way, it was MY brain chemistry, and in-turn, MY FAULT.
[looks dim] hmmmz. peerhapse ziz iz a kaze ov zee envy ov zee peeniz, ja? ven von haz zee peeniz envy, von kould peerhapse becomes veery angryz. :D
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 05:07 pm (UTC)Ah. Yes, I see now. I notice that you continually accept blame for all the things in your life, things that are clearly not your fault, but the fault of what was done to you. This seems to be almost a self-crucifixion ... crucifixu are potent phallic symbols, and the Christ was often symbolized by a fish, another phallic symbol. All that rage, centered about such potent phallic symbols --
Yes, yes, clearly penis envy. Well diagnosed. You are hereby freed of any guilt -- although not consequence -- for your actions. That being the case, it wouldn't hurt you in the least to pay a little visit to some people I have on this list, and just, let's say, act out your angers.
I'd appreciate it awfully....
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 05:21 pm (UTC)Hold on... I have a list of my own I have to act out my angers on... no... where did I put it -.-
I Like you :D
/me Keeps you.
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 05:23 pm (UTC)I'm very pleased. I like you, too, both ranting and playing ... but that just reflects my early trauma and conditioning.
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 05:41 pm (UTC)*smirks*
I wonder what would happen if...
*grins evilly*
*rings a bell*
*waits*
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 06:46 pm (UTC)--Othello.
(now, does the post comment button give me a pellet, or a shock? I always forget...)
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-01 06:47 pm (UTC)Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-02 09:59 am (UTC)I hope it was tastey :)
I like the colorful pellets... the round ones with the "S" on the top. :D
Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-02 09:59 am (UTC)Re: Pontification Warning:
Date: 2005-06-02 10:28 am (UTC)Mmm, fried frontal lobe. Good times, good times.