Into this night I wander

[cyrano]

It's dark; the only light is the ethereal blue glow of the subaquaeous lamp from the pool inside and the reflected light of Auburn Hills against the clouds. The lower half of me is submerged in the gently rolling hot water, while the upper half of me is tickled by the pelting, cold, demanding drops of rain that dance on my skin, fill my eyes. "Be alive," each drop says in its tiny voice, "this spark, this impact is to remind you that you are alive. Be alive." The continous soft melody of rain striking the concrete, the water in the pool, provides the harmony to their melody. "You are a part of this. You are an intrinsic piece of the everything." My obsessive focus, my worry and fixation on what will be, soon enough, forgotten minutiae, dissipates like the sparkling vapor thrown up from the water's surface.

This is an excellent reason to have a hot tub.

Comments

[faith-rose08.livejournal.com]

Gorgeous! You seem, like me, to be finding that the most difficult part of the journey toward a new career or employment, is defeating the nearly overwhelming sense of frustration at not being able to make things happen NOW - that leaves you lost in a desert of uncertainty. I say "Trust the rain dance!" and most of all trust the voice of your own soul. YOU are so much more than shows up in the physical world or in the physical world's slow response to the influx of your creative power. Many people love you CJ and many are praying for both you and me. Perhaps the immediate careers or employment we want so badly (sometimes just to end this damnable uncertainty and bring a semblance of of order and predictability) are not large enough for the vision of our soul. I believe with all my heart that good things are coming your way!!! You are a great soul. Love, Faith

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

Actually, at this point, most of my frustration and worry revolves around meeting obligations that I've acquired through diligence and hard work.
That and the rate at which the pile of obligations grows compared to the time allotted to meet them. Going back to school has been pretty humbling and beaten the crap out of my confidence. (But I scored 110% on last week's "Introduction to Logic" exam!)

[senatorhatty.livejournal.com]

You're in Auburn Hills?

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

I'm in Lake Orion (Gingelville), about twenty feet from I75. So I figure most of the light pollution is Pontiac or Auburn Hills.

[pusifoot.livejournal.com]

Hot tub + rain is one of my favourite things ever. Possibly the best (and also most dangerous) examples of this happened in Ashland during a heavy thunder and lightning storm.

It was worth it.

[cyranocyrano.livejournal.com]

I'd consider accepting the risk.